My Car Crash Dream Woke Me Up Fr Fr
- Krimmu
- Feb 1, 2024
- 8 min read
TLDR: I am a creative person with an anxiety disorder, working a non-creative job. So be prepared for some sensitive content and some intense dream dissection o_o Hope you enjoy the journey. Maybe some of you find it inspiring :)
Although I was calm when the chaos happened in the dream, it poked my brain for attention all damn day :( That morning I drove to work with my tank on E. I lived fairly close so I knew I had enough when I could refill afterward but I always had that thought about what if it just suddenly stopped working in the middle of the road.
In my dream, I remembered driving down a road. I don't remember if I listened to music or what road exactly, but I was going somewhere. Vroom.
Suddenly my wheel jerked to the right and got stuck. My car drove itself off the road and tumbled into the grass. (The day before this dream we watched a case on Judge Steve where a woman got into a car accident for this same reason. And her car EXPLODED 😱!!!)
Surprisingly I felt zero pain. I don't remember how I even got out of my car but I did calmly. I examined the damage which I also don't remember (there probably wasn't any), and then I physically FLIPPED my car over so easily as if it were a Mongoose in Halo 😂
That's about all I remembered but if it were to happen in real-life holy f**k that'd be TERRIFYING :(!!!
The memory bounced in and out, and I finally decided to look deeper into the dream and dissect it here. Dreams happen for a reason, and if the dreams stick to us, we should make time to look into them.
It's psychological magic ✨
Loss of Control
If you feel like events in your waking life are chaotic or unpredictable right now, your subconscious may translate that into dreams of car crashes. The crash represents the lack of control you feel. The good news is, that now that you recognise this, you can work to establish more stability and order. Start by focusing on what you can control each day and try to minimise anxiety over uncertainties. - DreamApp
Okay so... yeah. I've been having HORRIBLE anxiety for the past couple of months :(
This month it's beginning to HURT. Every day I experience a sort of panic, doom, despair, feeling out of control of everything where I want to crawl up and hide. The anxiety itself is hard to control, feeling like it's completely taking over my body, making it feel tight and heavy. That no silly breathing exercises or words of comfort will help me.
And tapping?? Nah, that doesn't help me, I find it silly lol
Two days ago before this dream, driving home from work, my thoughts were SPIRALING. They processed that I was leaving a place that caused me so much stress, heading to my apartment where I would receive even more fucking stress because of the puppy we were pet-sitting. Cute but he barks a lot, sheds our stuff, and never learned how to stop biting us.
While driving I began to CRY, and scream... as if someone f**king died.
Dude, I lost it. Luckily the road was 25 mph and I was a minute away. I parked in my spot, and I bawled for an hour, seatbelt on, heat on, and my dark-trap music blasting rumbling my car.
I was a hot mess :(
But I felt safe in my car. I screamed and cried so hard someone could probably hear but my neighbors were nowhere around. I felt I didn't have anywhere else to go; no friend's house, or public venues, and I took a pass taking a walk in the gross rain that day.
I literally trapped myself in my car to escape the world and break down. And I needed it.
My favorite people helped me through over the phone and I eventually got out my car, went straight to bed without taking the dog out of his cage, and hid under the covers. I felt terrible for leaving him in there because he's just a puppy. But I didn't trust myself around him feeling so unemotionally stable. And no matter how hard I tried I couldn't control that little creature to stop his habits. He's an animal but he still has feelings.
Laying in my bed I "meditated", daydreamed, and wrote down ideas for characters. After half an hour I began to work on art in my office, got very distracted, veryyyy invested, and appeared totally fine when my boyfriend got home even if he knew what happened. We skipped our writer's group that night so I could focus on taking care of myself.
So yeah, fun story...
But it comes to prove that I've been bottling up so much and the 2-litter of coke exploded splattering the walls. But when I read that quote above I learned I was in control of what to do next; how to take care of myself, the creative progress I can make, and what I've been wanting to make.
Fear of Failure
Crashing car in dreams can also reflect a fear of messing up or making a poor choice in some situations. Perhaps you have an important decision to make or feel unprepared for new responsibilities. The crash symbolises your worries about the outcome. The best way to overcome this fear is through preparation and practice. -DreamApp
This dream occurred the morning after I put in my two weeks at work.
I have a fear of failure with my current job and with my aspired creative career. The biggest obstacle to this fear is my anxiety, sucking the energy right out of me like a leech preventing me to try harder and stay consistent. Fucking exaustingggg...
The anxiety is mostly rooted from my job. It's not even the job I necessarily "wanted" in terms of a career, it was something I needed to pay the bills. It was a job I achieved after a long hard search for something better I had at that time, and something I just took after feeling frustrated about the constant rejections applying for creative work.
At this job, I was a VERY important asset. It felt good to have that status but my anxiety kicked in every day breaking me apart. On top of that it's very customer service based and... people be rude to me. Relief on me hardcore.
I felt the pressure to stay but after a conversation with my boss, he agreed that my mental health was most important and I sealed the deal. Two weeks.
I didn't want to fail them. Knowing how I've been feeling it's just going to get worse moving forward if I did stay. And I know I could achieve something else, something more comfortable, and most importantly, put more time and energy on my creativity.
Besides, what is failure? What is success?
Success is happiness. Success is being here right now. To me, success keeping my dope apartment, my healthy relationship, doing what I love, and surviving through it.
Time for a "Tune-Up"
A car crash dream may indicate it's time for self-care and re-evaluation. Much like a vehicle, you need maintenance to run properly. Are you neglecting rest, relationships or pursuits that fuel your soul? Now is the ideal time to slow down, check in with yourself and make sure you're headed in the right direction. A few small adjustments can go a long way toward finding inner peace and balance again. -DreamApp
So I began to practice drawing again.
I haven't "practiced" in a while. When I drew it was for a finished product, not exercise. And because I lost the energy for art my fundamental knowledge was pretty weak and needed a tune-up - like a car :O!
While sketching I had to remind myself to have fun with it again. For a while, I was stressing to come up with final products, and concepts. I didn't want to make time to experiment "Everything had to be DONE. Can't share unfinished work on my portfolios or social media. UNACCEPTABLEEEE >:U!!!!" - Me
No. This mentality became a huge leash around my neck. Choking me >_< Preventing me from improving. And it didn't matter if I finished school. There's still way more to learn.
So maybe this dream came at a good time... but maybe not when I had to drive that morning on E 😅
Surviving A Car Crash Dream
Dreams, where you survive a car crash, might relate to a conflict you expect in the future. It might be you’re worried about a risk you took. (...) It’s a sign that you could handle whatever comes your way logically and successfully. What’s even better? There’s a chance you might get over your fears and worries and move on. That’s true, especially if you got out of the accident without getting hurt. - dreamguideme
So yeah that dream occurred after giving my work two weeks' notice. It's risky because when it was time to leave I'd be home unemployed... That's pretty scary.
One of the biggest things I value is security. I remember when I first moved to the mitten and was unemployed for almost a year I feared I would never find a job, especially a job I wanted. But I had mental plans: more time for my art, improve my presence online, make crafts to sell, and services to offer while applying for more jobs.
But yeah... I got out of my car calm, unharmed, and flipped the car over easily as if it weighed like a basket. So fingers crossed that the journey from here on out will go smoothly. I have plans. I have skills. Let's do this.
The Stuck Steering Wheel
The steering wheel of a vehicle is used to change directions. Difficulty steering a vehicle down a road may reflect difficulty in changing the direction of your life or staying on the road with your short- and long-term goals. -dreaminterp
Okay, this was a big one. I only found one source that had a good insight into this detail which examined individual symbols in dreams.
The crash was caused when the steering wheel suddenly jerked right. It was out of my control entirely but I did try to turn it back to stay on the road, of course... So I won't DIE ;_;
My whole educational journey I've kept my goals focused on art and art alone. But also I struggled to find out my niche, my specialty. There were times I wanted to do 3D. Then I was told I was better at animation. Then character design... Then video-editing...
Wayyy too many options... 😩
Through my journey I wrote stories, sketching my character. concepts, and LOTS of daydreaming. (I like my comfy cloud.) Story building was my hobby but it did play a part in my schoolwork. I felt like that was my biggest strength and I could execute it with both art and writing.
So maybe the dream is saying my direction will change when I least expect it. Hopefully for the better.
Damn, at this point I wish I had cheat codes to know the answers but the universe doesn't work like that. They just like to sprinkle little hints to f**k with you and you'll have to find out 🙄
Conclusion
So yeah, my car crash dream woke me up. It summarized my undying dread for my job, and enlightened how I looked forward to something wayyy better. Game plan is pretty much set in stone too: search for a new job, take care of my mental health, and figure out what to do next with my art. On a side note, I still feel like a fairly new driver and my breaks squeaks like a school bus. So who knows my wheel might get stuck. (Jk. Hope not...)
Read more posts on what happens next on Keeping up With Krim lol...
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